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HOME Hello....I'm Anna Medici and have been a member of WW since Sept, 2000. I've been on a "diet" of some sort or other for as long as I can remember. As a child I was always "chubby" a cute word for "fat", and always a victim
of name calling...mostly fatty or fatso. Lots of unhappiness, crying,and hiding in my books.
I'd like to blame it on my Italian mother who seemed to always be saying "mangia",(EAT) but I've finally decided that at age 71 I was old enough to stop blaming others and to say ..."that's enough Anna" .
I hated it when I saw the number on the scale.......I hated it when my clothes constantly had to go up in size and I felt I had to always wear a jacket to "hide" my weight.
Finally decided to give WW another try. Being on WW I learned that I needed to learn to accept the fact that FOOD is not a reward nor does it lead to Happiness. I learned that chubby or fat is not cute or happiness for me, but that it was dangerous for my health. I learned that fad diets don't work. NO WAY I could lose 20 lbs a month or whatever the ads kept telling me.
I learned at WW that I had options...learned that there are no bad foods, just too much of a good food, I learned to self-talk, to turn my thinking to relearning how to eat, to keep tabs of portions, of what, when, why I ate,{called journaling). Learned to plan my eating or menus and to follow the rule..."if you bite...you must write". Best of all I learned that I could eat out and not gain weight, learned that I could go on a cruise, or to a wedding, and not gain 15 lbs. but still enjoy myself.
Amazingly during my journey I lost 54 pounds, I relearned to walk...every day, small goals at first, and then up to 4-5 miles a day....and some days twice a day...imagine that....me, who drove around the corner to buy the newspaper now takes the long way around to buy the paper. I'm planning to do a marathon in the next year. I'm hoping my mother will soon accept that I don't have to eat to be happy, that I love her even thought I don't accept her huge meals any more. I know that the people of the world who are starving to death cannot be helped by MY eating lots of food.
I recently gave all the unacceptable sizes in my closets to "Dress for Success" and even my closet seems happier to see size 10's & 12's.
I'm now realize that the saying "IF YOU BELIEVE YOU CAN OR YOUR BELIEVE YOU CAN'T ...YOU ARE RIGHT is correct. I CHOSE to believe I CAN.
I have made a LIFETIME choice to eat what I like or want in moderation and to walk and/or exercise every day, no matter where I might be. Best of all my brain has finally agreed with me and my journey continues and I WILL MAKE GOOD CHOICES for the rest of my life.
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